"There's a Method to my Madness!"

Shirley Jo got pissed tonight, and it was wonderful. I actually saw fear in eyes of colleagues when she threatened a final on all our heads. There are so many lazy actors out there who frankly need to leave the business and find something else to do with there time. They have absolutely no 'vision' nothing specific to how or when they see themselves. half is simple laziness and I may have other issues, but this has never been one of them. My vision for myself has always been extremely clear and tangible. I think I've been lucky. So many people have no idea what they want out of life. I've known since I was five. I thought everyone was just born knowing. I have subsequently found out that this is not true. Even when I was little I had passion and a lust for life, and as I have gotten older I just seem to overflowing over with it. Sometimes to the point where I'm not sure if I will ever be able to satisfy myself. I want to know everything. yes, I know this is ridiculous but I think it explains my college experience. I left a BFA program because I simply needed more than what it had to offer. To be the absolute best actor I can be I need to well versed in many disciplines.



I want to be a smart, diligent, actor who is in harmony with a director and communion with an audience. I also want to be an actor who can do anything. Like Kate Winslet, who is known to be fantastic and thus allowed to do whatever she fancies.



It is our job to channel the emotions that normal people can't deal with. And if you're actor who doesn't care enough about that, then I agree Shirley, they need to get the hell out.



Even though I didn't work tonight I found tonight's class to be very inspiring. The closing speech about when the actor has found how to channel the energy, gave me chills. Yes, I have felt this power before and it is other worldly and worth chasing. The best example I can think of is when Shakespeare text suddenly clicks within you. In London when I was working on Lady M, this happened for me. I have never felt so powerful. I could literally feel the energy and sexuality surging through my veins. Shakespeare seriously has all this majestic power that offers itself to actors who know how to get at it. I think That's probably why I am so interested in Shakespeare. It is certainly is the meatiest, healthiest text an actor can eat.